and then he made a sandwich

the morning was abuzz with so much talking.  there is always (always.) an incredible amount of talking around here but this morning it felt like too much. so much so that things almost felt muffled and hazy.

there was an incident involving two little boys that resulted in an all things star wars (humming theme songs included)/light saber/nerf gun ban for the foreseeable future. sweet relief.

some quick errands provided plenty of “teachable moments” to the point that by the time we got to the grocery store we were all getting tired of the fussing and correcting thus everyone was a bit on the mellow side. cue well-intentioned shopper who bestowed upon me the parental kiss of death, “oh my, i have never seen such well-behaved children at a grocery store ever!”  i gripped the shopping cart with white knuckles and braced myself for the almost absolute certainty that a full-on meltdown was about to erupt from one of them as a result of such hyperbole. but then the boys actually looked right up at me and giggled. the boys and i shared a knowing laugh, i winked at them, and (thankfully) everything was fine.

we came home. and the talking continued and got louder and louder. and there was a girl who flirted with a tantrum because her mama refused to put the rio theme song on repeat, a boy who just couldn’t sit semi-still and eat, and another boy who was a bottomless pit and kept asking for me to get up and get him more food. and as i was about to hit that point where i just wanted to put my head down and sleep for a bit, he said, “it’s ok, mom, i’ll make my own sandwich.” and he did. things got quieter and less hazy, and he was beyond proud and looked quite a bit older over there smearing pb and jelly on his bread. i smiled and told him that i thought he should take over making dinners from now on.  “sure!” he said happily.

watching

what does one do when they are emerging from a blurry weekend of migraines?  they watch things:

1. Bill Cunningham New York.  80 year old New York Times fashion photographer pedals around manhattan on a trusty bike wearing his blue jacket while taking photos of street fashion.  to me the most intriguing aspect of the documentary was the focus on the simplicity of his life and his refusal to be swayed by the money and power that could so easily have been his for the taking.

2. The Bark Side VW commercial.  for the past few weeks there is someone, at all times, humming various songs from Star Wars.  i am going mad from it.  but this just makes me laugh. very hard.

3. Buck Denver Asks…What’s in the Bible?.  we’ve only watched one episode, but omar and i laughed, the boys laughed, and we all got to learn about Catherine of Siena, Saint Jerome, the septuagint, and what the overarching story of the bible is telling us.  not bad for 30 minutes.

4. The War on Kids.  documentary #2 of the weekend (you can watch the whole thing here).  thought provoking film that aims to show how many (please note: i am completely aware that not all schools are like the schools profiled here) public schools are moving/have moved in a direction that denies students’ civil rights and seeks to control and instill fear in kids. the best parts are about the policy of zero-tolerance, drugs in schools, and the unfortunate results of much of the medication used to calm children.  what bothers me about the documentary is how it fails to offer any ideas on how to change the state of much of public schooling. what are some possible answers? it doesn’t give any.  where is the call for parents to step in and refuse to be bullied themselves? there is none.  many friends of mine who send their kids to public school are deeply committed to their children’s education and refuse to sit on the sidelines and tolerate much of the absolute crap you see here.  i felt i watched this more from the perspective of a former public school student than i did a teaching mother. much of it resonated with my experience.  i attended public schools from kindergarten through my undergraduate years. i would say i got an ok education and had 4 teachers (from elementary through high school) that i clearly remember as being excellent and many, many, many who were abysmal. and then there were some who were downright strange and wacky (like my 11th grade AP english teacher who accused me of doodling while taking notes (guilty) and tried to force me to put my head down for the rest of class). metal detectors weren’t at my high school by the time i graduated but we did have the equivalent of barney fife as our school police officer who truly made us nervous, except he actually carried a loaded weapon.

while there are some definite weaknesses here, i recommend it.

thursdays are for cleaning

thursday is cleaning day.  thursday is the day motown music blares.  winter thursdays are the days when all doors and windows are opened.  thursday is the day i lose half my supply of paper towels to the little people before i wise up and switch them to rags.  thursday is the day i realize that my pre-kid self would’ve thought three kids “cleaning” together would have been just shy of precious. this thursday is the day that i laugh at my pre-kid self and turn the music up a bit louder and am thankful that at least they’re eager. thursday is the day that nap time/quiet time is indeed quiet because of all the rambunctiousness of the morning.  thursday is the day that the floors are clean, omar notices, and i kiss him.

airports

i miss pre 9/11 airports. if you were still able to walk right up to the gate and stare out the windows, airports would make it onto our rotation of outing destinations. we went to pick omar up the other day and the boys were excited. i didn’t think they’d be able to see anything very interesting but then was happily surprised to see that omar’s concourse had a waiting area with a window overlooking the runway. i let them take pictures. they brought their pads of paper and pencils to document the event and shrieked every time an airplane came into view. they tackled their papi with hugs and kisses, were treated to hot chocolate and a cookie, and thought it was just about the best thing ever. i’ll miss these days when a quick trip to the airport and a cookie qualifies as an adventure.

carrots and spelt

ah, resolutions. truthfully, i don’t get too hung up about them.  they usually come to me in a rush the night before the new year and i figure there’s no harm in trying them out, but i don’t beat myself up if they end up not happening.  there’s always the next year.

but since much of my life at the moment is spent in the kitchen i usually take the food resolutions a bit more seriously.  usually.  remember my culinary resolution last year to cook and bake with more whole grains?  full disclosure: i tossed the bag of remaining buckwheat flour 11 months later and thought surely it hadn’t been 11 months since i used it last. it was actually closer to 12 months.  (side note: i notice that one of my 2011 resolutions was to try a new cheese each month.  how did i forget to follow through on that one?)

my eye caught the bag of spelt flour on the shelf the other day and i figured i’d give the 2011 resolution another go.  one spelt recipe down – carrot muffins from Good to the Grain.  delicious and downed by all the children.  next up: huckle buckle coffee cake.

tea, trump, deathbed, and downton

this weekend lenna continued her playtime with her new tea set.  there is a lot of, “ooh! it’s so cute!” coming from the boys and me when we see her play with it. and soon she’ll get her replacement xylophone so there can be a little music during teatime, too. xylophone #1 came to us with the addition of some termites. i had a momentary freakout thinking that the innocent looking yet tainted xylophone would lead to a tenting repeat.  here’s hoping it doesn’t.

i think one of the last things you’d find on donald trump’s new 757 airplane is a wood tea set.  i drove by the airport the other day and saw his rather large private jet and wondered, “hmm…what’s that look like inside?” a couple of clicks and here you go.  it has gold plated seat belts, a movie room, and a gold sink.  of course it does.

on the humbler end of the spectrum – deathbed music.  npr had an interesting story on Deathbed Music: The Final Works of Famous Composers.  the whole story is good but i loved the part about bach and his chorale prelude “Before Thy Throne I Stand.” i’m now on a hunt for the sheet music. just gorgeous.

the pbs-obsessed are all abuzz with the debut of the second season of Downton Abbey. last night my dad wondered how it is that british period soap operas are so interesting.  i feigned offense for a moment, but it’s true. it’s a soap opera. a good, british one. and while i wouldn’t dream of taking a “which Days of Our Lives character are you?” quiz, you know i’ll sign right up to take a “which Downton Abbey character are you?” quiz (thanks, bethany!).  i am proudly robert, earl of grantham.

a dress for lenna

it is finished.  the dress i started for lenna for her first birthday was finally slipped over her little head just in time for her 20 month birthday.  and its snug-factor is telling me it won’t last until her 2nd birthday.

i wasn’t sure how it was going to turn out once i decided to finish the skirt with fabric, but i really like it. i was also pretty certain that it would be a long, long time before i picked up knitting needles again, but the combination of seeing it on her, seeing yet another cute pattern on tora frøseth’s site, and the fact that i’m currently sitting in front of the fire wrapped in a blanket is making the desire to knit rather strong.

resolutions of the 2012 variety

go to the zoo more
grow more food
learn about herbal remedies
memorize all european and african countries AND their capitals
memorize the book of philippians
take a photo per day
read 48 books
sew clothes for myself (this dress/tunic is high on my list – everything she sews is great)
start (note i don’t say finish) Bible Reading Program for Shirkers and Slackers (thanks, margie!)
bake more (2011 was kind of a no-bake year)

hey, 2011, i liked you.

january  ::  when i think of last january the first thing that pops into my mind is a photo i took right after all the decorations came down.  it’s clean and simple and the flowers made everything seem new.  there was a lot about last january that made me excited to start the year off fresh.  i decided at the last minute to start the 365 photo project and am so i glad i’ve (mostly) stuck with it.

february  ::  if there was a hardest month, february wins hands down.  this was the month a friend lived with us and then had to leave us suddenly. but there was so much growing and learning that i’m thankful for it.

march  ::  a good month. we visited friends in jacksonville. we got a piano. i turned 31, and omar and my mom made the best, most unhealthy meal. it was perfect.

april  ::  it was omar’s turn for a birthday meal this month. poor asher succumbed to pneumonia resulting in the saddest picture of the year. our wonderful neighbor boys surprised the kids with the most thoughtful easter egg hunt easter morning. and i have to mention the bacon wrapped stuffed jalapenos because omar and i have talked about them with almost everyone this year.

may ::  lenna turned one.  elisha turned five. termites were destroyed, and we made our way north to north carolina.

june ::  in june i developed and nurtured my cold-brewed coffee addiction. i wrote my favorite post of the year. i think it is because i remember that day so well for some reason. omar and i made a spontaneous date night trip to miami for dinner. we started heading to the beach every friday afternoon. my brother and his family headed south for a visit.

july  ::  omar and i went to ft. myers for 3(!) nights. we did nothing. we read. we were positively boring. it was perfect. in july i also experienced the attack of pine mouth, and i’ve yet to taste another pine nut.

august  ::  we said goodbye to the car i’d had since college.  lenna started walking. homeschooling commenced.

september  ::  we started our garden. and it was good. september was also the month that kicked off a 6 week stretch of migraine upon migraine. much of the month is a blur.

october  ::  csa season started.  asher turned four.  the west palm green market started up again leaving the kids happy and full of doughnuts and popcorn. the first scarf of the season is worn when omar, lenna, and i made our way to north carolina for a wedding. both of the boys dressed up as darth vader for halloween.

november  ::  the boys started reading, bit by bit. i got to be the most spontaneous i’ve been all year when i agreed to head to atlanta with omar for a few nights with only a couple of hours notice. we headed north to st. augustine and deland for thanksgiving with family, making it my third trip in one month! scrabble reentered our lives.

december  ::  christmas and clementines. advent readings and candles.  a friend’s sweet girl was born. trips to the park. omar praised me for not complaining about the winter heat this year. after 7+ years of marriage we decided to finally turn our attention to our bedroom and move it away from the dorm-inspired look to a peaceful, actually decorated retreat. i love it.

christmas 2011

christmas 2011 has come and gone.  the boys are absent from almost all photos.  once the star wars lunchboxes and nerf guns were opened, i lost them.

the littlest one had quite the party dress for christmas eve and christmas day.  christmas morning she found a stroller for her baby.

and then promptly finished up santa’s crumbs.

there has been a lot of eating, a lot of family, a lot of gifts, and a lot of sweets.  omar’s ipad dreams came true, and i loved keeping all the scheming under wraps.

these days before christmas

this little project is the fruit of two things: my boys asking me how many days until christmas all. day. long.  and my need to shrink this stack of christmas scrapbook paper i’ve had for a few years now.  for the past few days asher seems beyond christmas and is now asking me how many days until his birthday.  i see a really long paper chain and some stellar counting skills in his future.

my parents were out of town for several days so elisha’s school project was to write a journal entry each day they were gone.  he gets to draw, i get to get him writing, he gets to have a refresher for each day as he recounts the days to my parents when they return, i get to rid myself of even more scrapbook paper.  win, win, win, win.

oh, the clementines.  they are here, and asher is in heaven.  we all love them but that boy can’t get enough of them.  he’s also the compost police.  if you peel and throw into the trash he’s on you.  “the compost pail, mama.” right, right.

and we need the compost police around here because the garden is doing quite well.  swiss chard and tomatoes all over the place.  corn growing high.  herbs thriving.  we planted a small variety of carrot, and while most didn’t do so well, there were a few that made it.

and what is christmas without a little nativity sheep riding at dusk?

easter raccoons

elisha and i got to spend the morning together yesterday.  that boy can talk.  we made a trip to the doctor where he described in detail his siblings’ current illness, a trip to the grocery store where he gave me lots of input and suggestions, and a trip to target where we got a little treat.  he loves to sit at this bar and look out the window at all the traffic.  i loved spending some one-on-one time with my oldest. while sipping our drinks he nonchalantly asked me when i was going to get a real job.  that was soon followed up with a question about why racoons are always born on easter (??).  we both agreed that whipped cream is the best part of hot chocolate.

polish, politics, place

we’ll start on the lighter end of the topic spectrum: nail polish. it is grayish. it is purplish. it is chinchilly. it is great.

i like politics.  i like reading about politics.  i don’t head to The Daily Show for my main source of political info (and am always a bit puzzled when someone says they consider that their one source of news) but politics and comedy often make such great bedfellows, so i head on over there when i just know stewart will have an interesting take on something.  i have thoroughly enjoyed his recent treatment of the GOP debates (if they should even be called that) here and the mind-boggling current defense appropriations bill here (constitutional amendment 6, anyone? and a few other amendments, too).  crazy stuff, people.

place.  The New Atlantis has a series on their site about “Place and Placelessness in America.”  this is fascinating.  the first article in the series, GPS and the End of the Road by Ari Schulman, is about how GPS and similar technologies have changed how we travel and experience our own and foreign lands.  i mentioned here before that i can experience destination/new experience letdown. like when i first flew over mt. rainier and i actually said to myself, “that’s it?”  but now i can shamelessly talk about this odd problem of mine because those like walker percy, alain de botton, and others of the literary world have evidently suffered from this, too:

The idea…is that places and points of interest have some set value, as it were, that can be entered into a data bank, used to inform our choice of destination, and received by us on our arrival.

Among the greatest of these destinations, especially from the perspective of the American traveler, is the Grand Canyon. The sight is awe-inspiring in a way that centuries of recounted visitation to it have never adequately been able to put into words. And yet some visitors to the canyon have discovered there a certain crack in the guidebook façade. Take, for example, the recent account of travel writer Henry Shukman, who admits that he was “disappointed” the first time he saw the canyon: after enduring a long traffic jam in the drive from Los Angeles, “When we eventually managed to park, and walked to the rim, the scale of the sight off the edge was so great it was hard to muster a response. It was so vast, and so familiar from innumerable pictures, it might just as well have been a picture.”

…Alain de Botton, in The Art of Travel (2004), claims that “where guidebooks praised a site, they pressured a visitor to match their authoritative enthusiasm, and where they were silent, pleasure or interest seemed unwarranted.”

…What Percy and these other writers are getting at is that just as important as what we see in the world is how we go about seeing it. We are adept at identifying points of interest, but pay scant attention to the importance of our approaches to exploring them; our efforts to facilitate the experience of place often end up being self-defeating. What Percy’s strategies aim to do, in part, is to put the traveler into a state of willingness and hunger to encounter the world as it is, to discover the great sights with the freshness, the newness, that is so much of what we seek from them. Alain de Botton also describes this attitude as the solution to the guidebook problem, and identifies it as the mode of receptivity.

this makes so much sense.  and perhaps explains my excitement of one place versus the letdown at the next.  i was high in an airplane when i saw mt. rainier.  i saw it for a few minutes, flew on past, made my insightful remarks, and that was it.  but take petra, as another example.  i visited jordan when i was fifteen.  i hadn’t studied it.  i didn’t know much about it (other than what i had gleaned visually from Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade), but when we walked through the gorge and then found ourselves standing before the truly awesome treasury carved into the cliffs, i was awestruck.  and i have never seen a picture of it since without remembering the sights and smells of all of it.  i didn’t just stand above it and see it from afar.  i was in it.

the essays are good and thoughtful and will definitely beef up your to-read lists.

merry christmas to me

my sewing itch hits at the oddest times.  i have quite a few more pressing things to tend to right now, but then christine goes and shows us her cute kitchen windows.  i decide that curtains are now more important than things like finding christmas presents or feeding children lunch.

in fairness to myself i only ran into Joann’s to grab a spool of thread but then wouldn’t you know that the new Denyse Schmidt line (her quilts are beautiful) for Joann’s grabs my eye and the bolt of aqua, red, salmon/pink, mustard yellow 1930s-ish fabric finds its way into my hands.

an hour and a half and the first episode of Return to Cranford later there are little boy-approved curtains hanging in the kitchen.  even the oldest boy in the house assured me that the flowers were not a problem.  phew.

and there is still more sewing happening.  i mentioned 8 months ago that i was knitting a dress for lenna.  well, it stayed on the needles for about 8 months (eerily fulfilling my fears after i just read over the comments…) and then there was a falling asleep while knitting (yes, it can happen) incident and the project got put aside.  but the determination to make something with the thing, some matching fabric, a little bit of sewing, and the second episode of Return to Cranford are about to make it wearable.  at least if there isn’t a falling asleep while sewing incident because then i think i’d just give up.

christmas like

panettone bread
thirsty trees (thank goodness)
christmas library books
crocheted snowflakes
burl ives singing one moment
john rutter songs the next
and sufjan a few moments later
pomegranates
evergreen candles
tacky ornaments
lovely ornaments
gift scheming
rooms lit only by tree lights
photos of tree lights
dozing by tree lights
advent readings with kids
felt stockings
felt pillows
eggnog with enough fresh nutmeg to make you sneeze
sneaking eggnog into pancake batter
christmas parades
cookies, cookies, cookies